When I found you, you were helpless

You were good, I couldn't care ‘less’..

You would lie in my thoughts all the time,

Couldn't take you off my mind..

All I seeked for is your happiness,

The sparkle in your eyes when you smile..

Insanity was all you knew,

But you weren't that difficult..

Pain was as if running in your blood,

I wished you could leave it at my door..

About the next I had no clue,

But I promised I would be there with you..

Negativity surrounded your world,

But, positive, was your every single word..

I would do anything for you

cause from my soul I considered you true..

I wouldn't mind being miles away from you,

if that is what would give pleasure to you..

I would forget all my troubles and deal with yours,

cause your smallest comes before my biggest fears..

I could give my life to keep you happy,

cause my love isn't conditional..

It was a dream, until you lied,

perhaps you just wanted the truth to hide..

But the truth wouldn't have hurt me at all,

it was the truth after all..

Maybe I’d have given you boring lectures,

But is it so difficult to listen to it once?

A lie is very hard to take, at least for me,

lies after lies you were killing me..

Your lies weren't big ones no doubt,

but your little lies were enough to snatch out

My world..

from me.....

But I'll still be the same to you..

Cause my love, my friendship, isn't conditional..

I can't care ‘less’........

~ Plabita Borthakur

You were sprouting

in my blood.. in my heart!!

The way you make me express

The way you make me smile

Oh it's splendid, the way you drive me crazy!

just a beat or two

into my ears

And all I need to do

is close my eyes

and I feel you.. flowing in my blood!

You give me a high, a real mad high..

For the moment you take me away

to a completely different world

And I don't feel like coming back

till the flow you give me remains!

But then..

just in a moment

you disappeared.. saying you'll take long to come back...

Just in a moment

all dreams shattered, everything around turned dark

But hey.. I won't let you go, no no!

I will wait for you to be back

I'll do everything to bring you back

and then again

You'll take me to that other world..

Till then, I would just say

oh dancing.. I miss you!!

~ Plabita Borthakur

And here I am...

Standing in the middle of the road...

Have no clue where it leads to and where it started..

I can hear my name being called out by the silence..

But don't quite know what this name means...

When I look around I see everybody with me,

Yet it's just the silence that speaks....

I'm almost falling apart 'cause I'm unable to figure out...

How I've got here

Where is it leading

Who I really am.......

~ Plabita Borthakur (manu)

You're just like the sand under the scorching red sun..

The more I try to grab you,

You slip away through my fingers leaving them half burnt...

but if I don't try at all,

I wouldn't feel you even for that little time till you slip away!

not that I would die without you,

not that I intend to burn myself into ashes..

but the 'something' that you did to my soul,

left me helpless in a fake bliss.......

~ Plabita Borthakur (manu)

You have always given me love..

All I've always caused is pain..

You don't have to act any tough..

Your pretense would just go in vain!

They say we complement each other..

And that we look cute together..

They hardly with their eyes can see..

The dark and evil side of me!

Too much pain and not a scream

Do you think it's all a dream?

But seems like your heart just bled

And this feeling makes me dread!

Hurt is what I hate to give

But hurt is all I have to give you.....

~ Plabita Borthakur (manu)

I don't want you..

Things could be so much better without you,
you know.
But you still won't leave me alone.
Will you?

Let me live
in today
for tomorrow.
Oh yesterday!
Please don't follow!

Haunting me
with every passing second
You're cruel
but all I can do is wait...

For days to become years
For time to cover you in its cloak
For you to fade away from my mind
But I know you

I know you still won't leave me!
Oh yesterday!
Go away!

~ Plabita Borthakur (manu)

Look where I am

There's no trace of sweat up here

And the wind, it's killing me.. yeah it's that cool!

I'm walking..

on the fresh green grass with crystal like dew drops on it

It's leading me to my all time passion- the swing!

I'm swinging away to glory in this cold winter evening

what not my eyes can relish upon

the trees and bushes are colourful with freshly bud flowers

the fragrance is telling me it's heaven

the melodious birds are chirping a beautiful tune,

to which I wanna sing along even if I'm not perfectly tuned

this place is nothing but a miracle

oh I don't wanna leave from here

but

I open my eyes and find myself in the park down my building

in the same old 'hot' city where they say it's a waste of time to swing.

but

I put on my headphones,

turn on the music,

and set my feet free from the ground

and I stare at my feet going up and back as the swing moves in full swing!!

~ Plabita Borthakur (manu)

I always knew it would be hard..

But this hard I had no clue!

I took you close for who you are..

And from my heart I say, it's true!

So much for me everyday, everytime,

No one else would do what  you've done!

And look at me, I underestimated 'the time'..

And thought that faster than time I can run!

There still was the stupid mind that wanted to be heard..

But I was too deaf, and look what I have done!

Now, of tears there is a dearth..

But to make me light, I want more of it to come!

Cause the lines you sing linger in my mind..

No matter when, where or what I have to be!

I've Been a fool, I've messed up with you..

I should have known there isn't a safe place for me!

There is no safe place for me..

There can't be a safe place for me...

And look at me,

I was trying to run faster than time!

~ Plabita Borthakur (manu)

Why is it so obvious and I still can't accept it?

Why is it so piercing, the behavior you elicit?

Why can't I just do what all the others do?

When along with the others you do it too!

Have fun, share a laugh, little bit of flying;

but all I'm always left with is little more of worrying!

I'm just your little doll locked in your closet;

I've found the key but I just wouldn't use it.

I chose you, over everything I ever owned;

You stole away from me all the bliss I ever found!

You awesomely escaped to your green world so 'wow'

Leaving me behind with a painful broken vow!

~ Plabita Borthakur (manu)

I may be cold, I may be warm
Maybe I lie, maybe I'm true
Maybe I'm me, maybe I'm not
I may be torn, I may be one
I may be judged, I may be loved
I may be lost, I may be home
Maybe I'm changed, maybe I'm old
I may be high, I may be low
I may be heard, I may be quelled

Maybe I'm judged

Maybe I'm me, maybe I'm not

But all of this matter not

All that matters is my presence
Just my presence
Rest you can 'escape'