Speculum

I went to meet myself in another world,

in a time where magic unfurled..

The course of events took an unnatural swerve,

the nature of which was filled with verve..

I was a part of me and yet transcendent,

attached yet independent..

Flowing through me, a crimson tide,

to the tune of a drumbeat inside..

Forests within,

darken the given..

Afraid of the shadowy distance to cover,

I try to calm my insides till its over..

But the road is long and muddy,

right about now I need a buddy..

In the face of fear I stand,

silently falling apart in a way I cannot understand..

Crumbled to the floor, I lose myself to the reign of darkness,

the lights are all out, its a truth in all its starkness.

The only sound is the thunderous beating of my heart,

against the painful silence of a new start..

Brought together by a glimmer of hope,

for me to be myself again, there is some scope..

And slowly I am joined crease by crease,

by an absent force making my sense of self increase.

Taking over is a sense of vengeance,

with a fuming flagrance..

To rise and be strong,

a process that wont take too long..

Forming an exterior of cold steel,

is somehow the best way to feel..

Off I go fighting with a drive aglow,

the wounds will show..

When I travel from where I am, to where I belong

I cant be waiting for opportunities to come along.

I am the opportunity,

no slave to importunity.

I must be where I can be me,

not where I crumble like the earth below me..

With each stride, I lose the land I once tread,

with every step I lose some more dread..

In this transient phase, caught in a vortex,

nothing to comprehend, its all too complex..

I'm losing memory of where I was, no time to pause,

and to go back to them is a lost cause..

Traveling back or forth, I cannot tell,

a feeling of anticipation I quell..

Moving on there's a light in the end,

along the slope i begin to descend..

Increasing familiarity,

confusing peculiarity..

A figure standing in the distance,

fear becoming a persistence.

It face I know, all to well,

it shares the same story I tell.

Word to word, there is no change,

it is not strange.

It is essentially who i wanted it to be,

I have finally met me.